can someone please explain to me why the top of my stomach feels like it just got a shot of novocain?! it's numb as all get out and it feels very wierd. i'll ask my doctor thursday, i have an appointment then.
so yesterday consisted of me spending money that i don't have and once again getting ditched so someone could go have sex. do people not learn from my mistakes? sex=pregnancy=no life at all. i don't know any other way to put it. so i end up feeling like a complete annoyance to my neighbor due to the fact that i didnt want to sit around my apartment and hear sex moans. he was kind enough to let me chill at his house, but i still feel like he didn't want me there. i don't blame him.
i want my OWN place to live. somewhere just with me and rae and no one else. but that involves having a job that actually pays you something other than petty money that doesnt get you anywhere. you would think that after working with a company for two years they'd respect you enough to help you out knowing you were single and pregnant, but no. i need to get married so i don't have all these worries anymore. i want to get married to someone in the military for many reasons, one because of medical insurance, two so i can take off work for a year and spend it with my daughter being a house wife/mom with no stress of babysitters or work, and three [i know this sounds terrible] so that he won't be around 24/7. when you marry someone in the military there are always base lock downs, field excerises that last days, tdy, and the occasionaly deployment [in war time.] i've grown up knowing this lifestyle, and i like it. so who's up for gettin hitched? haha
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