girl you's a ten..

i'm at a very awkward point in my life [not only that, but i find the word awkward to be..well awkwardly spelt.] i digress. as much as i cannot stand females, and sure as hell do not trust them, i'm beginning to realize that in the end, they are the ones who will be there for you when you fall on your ass. no matter how good of a guy friend he may be to you, in the end, when you need him the most, he's not going to be anywhere to be found. why is that? is it simply because guys don't know how to be loyal regardless of the situation? i'm not saying every female is there, and that every female is loyal because by no means do i find that to be true. hence being one of the reasons i can't stand females to begin with. but what i'm saying is, in the end i guess you have to stick to your own kind. how can one expect someone of a different sex, who's NEVER walked a day in your shoes even somewhat similar to yours, to be there for you when you need them the most, when you're at your lowest point? may be this is just me losing ALL faith and trust in men, may be this is a growing point in my life, to be completely honest i'm not sure. what i am sure of is though, even through all the bullshit and catfights, my girls are the ones who have been there for me through thick and thin no matter the situation. in the end, they're the one's who have had, and will have my back. so at this point, i'm ready to tell any male that crosses my path and feeds me the line of "you know i'm here for you" to kiss my ass because that doesnt mean the same thing in girls words as it does guys. in a girls mind that means no matter what the situation, i have your back. in guys words, i'm here until it gets tough, but once it gets tough i won't be anywhere to be found but i'll find you again when i think you're doing better. for once in my life, i'm proud to be a girl.