seven days a week

as much as i try and forget about jon, one of my good friends, i just can't. i can like other people but when it comes to it, he's the one that i continuously think about. he's always on my mind, and always in my heart. how different would things be right now if he hadn't told me not to wait for him? a part of me want's to move on but there's an even bigger part that doesn't want to in hopes that he and i will get together and work things out. i will never forget our first kiss. we were at starbucks. he came and saw me on my break, it was night time. i was about to go back to work and he kissed me. it doesnt seem that special but to me it was. i had wanted to do that for so long but i had a boyfriend when i met him. i know he would accept me and my child like it was nothing. but i'm so scared of passing up life just waiting around for something i'm not even sure about. i've messed up a lot of things in my life but i don't want this to be just another thing on the list. i want this to be one of the things i've done right.